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Issue 04 — Of Course She Had a Red Flag

There is an unspoken agreement you make with yourself when you work in production. The day owns you until it doesn't, and when it releases you, you go. No negotiating, no lingering — you collect your things and you leave before someone finds one more thing that needs doing.

The last interview of the day was a no-show. Cast member. Happens. We wrapped early and I did the math standing in the parking lot: if I move now, get home, get ready, I can make it to the party. My friend's birthday. EP/LP. Rooftop. July in LA which means warm air and city lights and the particular magic of a Saturday night when you're above it all looking down.

I was exhausted in the specific way that a full stage day produces — not sleepy exactly, more like hollowed out. But I try to show up for people when I can. So I showed up.

Getting ready took longer than planned because it always takes longer than planned and I have never once in my life learned anything from this. The outfit required negotiation — something that looked intentional but felt like I could breathe in it, which is a harder brief than it sounds after ten hours in a production environment. Eventually I landed on something. Took a Lyft because I already knew I wanted to drink and I didn't trust the version of myself that would exist at midnight to make good decisions about driving.

I arrived, found my friend, wished her a happy birthday, and made the rounds. The people I knew, the people I didn't — I introduced myself, made small talk, kept moving toward the bar the way you do at a party when you need a drink to properly enjoy the party you came to.

The bartender was gorgeous. I ordered a Ketel One on the rocks with a lemon and was borderline flirting in the way that is technically just being very friendly but is also not entirely just being very friendly. She smiled. I took my drink and went back to the party.

I found a group — five people, I knew three of them, gathered around a bar top deep in a conversation I recognized immediately. Worst showrunners in the industry. A topic on which I have extensive, well-documented opinions. I worked my way in, listened for a beat to find my entry point, and contributed.

We compared notes. Named names. Collectively and unanimously decided that a woman named Laura had claimed the top spot. It wasn't close.

Johnny looked at his empty glass and announced he needed a refill — anyone else? The group moved toward the bar in a small migration, everyone except one woman who stayed at the bar top.

Her name was Diana.

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